Lol i can't
With all the personal information Facebook undoubtedly has on me, you'd think they'd know better than to suggest that I 'like' Ted Cruz's page. I mean really now.

Conversation from today
D: Can I submit you for a 13 week contract in Vermont? I know it's really far away, but I thought I'd ask
Me: Yes! Absolutely! That would be amazing, actually
D: Ha, I thought you'd feel that way

I mean lbr here, I'm ready to go anywhere but jfc Vermont for the holidays would be amazing.

Oh and I ordered the new iPhone yesterday since I'm eligible for an upgrade. I figured I'd just wait for the gold one since I didn't think i was eligible for an upgrade until January anyways.

I feel like I want to update this but I don't really have anything to say.
Still home. Texas is still excruciatingly hot. I made the mistake of meeting up with my dad and stepmom at the dog park today over by whiterock, and we all only lasted about an hour before we just could not anymore. It's just too miserable outside during the day.

I've seen Deanna, Jeri, and Brittany Weaver since I've been home. I've hung out with family, started a new term (Molecular diagnostics and Special Topics in Microbiology), made plans to see other people in the coming weeks, and I think I'm going to go visit Kim in Arkansas.

I went shopping with Brittany yesterday which was amazing because we went to a real mall with real stores and it was beautiful and nothing hurt.

Annnnd that's it, really. Visiting has been really awesome and it's been great to see so many people over the last month. I'm really glad I left Bandon. It was definitely the right choice.

Packing is such a pain in the ass.
There is so much to do. Ugh I just wish it was doneee.

So Claire flies in on Saturday, and then we'll leave here on Monday. AND I still have two days of work left. ksldfjlksdj. But then I'm done.

I am legitimately trying to get rid of things
But I have that slight tendency to think "Oh but what if I want it ~someday." And these aren't things I have even been using. They are things I brought all the way up here and have sat in boxes in my closet for the last year and a half.

And I'm not even sentimental about things, but it's more coming from a place of practicality. "Oh i'll use that again"

No. You won't. Donate it.

Like I kept all my notes from my tech program because I thought I'd reference them when I was back in school. I have not. Not even once. But still, recycling all that paper is oddly stressful. What if I neeeed those notes at some point?

And to top it off all, i'm procrastinating on LJ.

So Claire is officially coming. She arrives in Portland on the 10th, we're leaving Bandon the 12th, and we'll be home by the 19th or 20th.

We're doing: Portland, Crater Lake, San Francisco, Yosemite, Phoenix (probs), the Grand Canyon, and then heading home. If we end up going to phoenix, we'll have to loop around the top part of LA to hit I10. So maybe we'll do LA stuff. But neither of us really gaf about LA so probs not.

School starts on the 26th, and I want to be in Chicago by October.

Oh! But the hospital did find someone to fill my position! Apparently she's from the area, was working as a traveler for a few years, but is now looking to settle down again. She's older, but has lots of experience. I'm super relieved. I don't think she's starting until Sept. 1, so I won't meet her, but I'm really glad they found someone. It makes me feel a lot better about leaving.

'You need civilization'
This is the mantra I have to keep repeating to myself.

Since I basically quit by telling my boss "You are legit awesome and this job is legit awesome but Bandon is legit terrible" people have been going out of their way to convince me that Bandon is worth living in. They keep suddenly ~remembering~ young people they know, and while I wasn't outright offered more money, it was made super obvious to me that if I ~wanted to ask for more, that door could be opened.

But the thing is, it isn't about the money (which is actually really good and I will probably end up taking a pay cut at my next job because the pay is so good here). It isn't about how nice people are. I want to live in a city that does Pride, and I want to have a choice of what bar to go to. I want to see a free-standing Starbucks, and I want to see a real mall. And I don't want to have to drive three hours to do those things. I can't even think of the last time I saw a hipster. And I love laughing at hipsters. (The kids here seem to be stuck in 2003 and are still doing the 'scene' stuff. It's hilarious, actually.)

And I really do miss the Kappas.

But even though all of those things are true, these people are super good at making me doubt this choice. Just a little bit. But even though I turned in my letter of resignation I got a text from one of the techs today telling me that my boss was telling him that he 'wished he could figure out how to get me to stay'

Granted, I think part of that is just the annoyance at having to find a new person. And I get that. Hell, it's why I gave so much notice (and I would have given more except I didn't want to stress Jay out because our state inspection was coming up). I truly want them to find someone awesome.

I think part of this doubt is probably stemming from my lack of new job. I mean I haven't even really started looking. I'm not leaving until a month from today, and then I want to spend a few weeks at home, so I'm looking at early September before I can even start.

It's just that every single day now I deal with the constant questions of "well what if blah blah blah" in an attempt to get me to stay. Like apparently they were trying to work it out so that I could change my shift around, etc.

And that's all well and good, but I'm still three hours from a movie theater with stadium seating. Which is what I keep trying to remind myself.

Oh my word this week tho
This week has been so stressful.

I gave notice, I have a test this week, SCOTUS (bad) decisions, and SB5 stuff, and general awkwardness have just made this week weird and stressful.

So nervous about DOMA and Prop 8. Lawd.

I gave notice yesterday
It was mostly okay, I guess. I told my boss that I didn't want to quit, but I just couldn't live here anymore. And I told him that he's the best boss I've ever had and I already know my next job won't be nearly as awesome because of it, but that I need other things going on in my life other than just work.

All of which was true. And I think it really speaks to how good of a person/boss he is that I didn't have to lie even a little bit.

So yeah, I guess I'll have to officially start job hunting in a few weeks. I won't be able to be in Chicago until like Late august/early september so it's still a little premature to start putting in applications. But I'm not too worried. Especially because when I told Sadman basically his first response was "Well, I'll have to start getting you a great letter of recommendation together"

So I told him thank you and that I feel really bad and that I didn't want to quit and that him doing that wasn't really necessary and he was like "No Alyson trust me, you've been an amazing addition to this staff."

And idk it was just really nice and wonderful and also terrible because I am basically throwing away this great job.

And I know I'll be glad I did it in the long run. But immediately after I was feeling very nervous about it and like "oh god what have I done I can't be poor again ughhh" but, I really doubt I'll have trouble finding a job. I really hope I won't have trouble finding a job.

Granted, I doubt I'll be getting paid as much but certain sacrifices just have to be made. When I told Barb I was quitting last week, she even asked me if more money would make a difference. And honestly, even if I was making like 250K with boss benefits, I would still quit. It's just too secluded and there is too little to do and too few people to do those limited things with.

I will miss how beautiful it is here. I do want to take a bunch of pictures before I leave.

Also lol. My mom asked me if I was going to look in Dallas at all for a job. And I was basically like "lol mom pls. No" There is no way I'm going to hang out in Dallas again. It's just not going to happen.

I am so obsessed with Orphan Black
No, like. Seriously, seriously obsessed. And I'm 800% in love with Tatiana Maslany. Get that Emmy gurl.

I need to finish season one but I almost don't want to because I don't want to have to wait until the spring for more episodes.

If you aren't watching Orphan Black I legitimately don't know what you're doing with your life. This show is pretty much everything I have ever wanted omggggg.

But seriously


How does

clone club

she exist
best one ever

I mean she is literally


a perfect human

queen of my loins

People keep asking me what I'm going to do with the dog, as if it's even a question. And I keep saying things like, "Obviously he's coming with" but what I really mean is "Um, I'm going to have him hop in the car and then we'll drive away together?"

I mean really. "Well you know I got a dog, but I think i'm just going to leave him here at the shelter nbd" Ugh, please.

We have our state inspection on Tuesday (luckily it's my weekend so I don't have to deal with it). Sadman and Barb have been a little stressed about it. But it'll be over soon.

Right now the current plan for moving is:

Claire flies into Portland and we do Portland things for a day or two.
Head back to here and finish packing up.
Go to Crater lake for some camping
Go to San Francisco and do San Francisco for a day or two.
Go to Yosemite and camp overnight
Start heading east and do the Grand Canyon
Drive to Dallas.

I feel like it's going to be a mess, but memorable.

And I need to call the vet in the morning and schedule the dog for his boosters and check-up. Andddd I need to start packing up and but that's not as fun as searching for fun road-trip things to do.


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